This is essentially an outlet for the many varied, random and crazy thoughts and things that go through my head.Everything from deep personal thoughts, the music that helps to keep me alive (and sort of sane) as well as random shit that I find either profound and inspirational or just really fucking yeah come with me now into the weird and fucked up place that is my blog\m/ ABOUT MYSELF: I'm a eighteen year old boy from sheffield in the UK.I've lost numerous things in my life from a young age (Pets, grandparents, members of one half of my family, close friends, people that i have held nearest and dearest to my heart).As anyone can imagine that can leave anyone understandably damaged and unstable and it's caused me to have to deal with feelings of depression, loneliness, alienation, isolation, rejection, inadequacy and pain from the age of ten.I was also diagnosed with ADHD at the age of five/six and have had to learn to live with and embrace this as part of who I am.Through out my life I have been on the receiving end of bullying, sometimes coz of my ADHD or just because of who am or what I like.But through all of this, I have found one place one part of life that makes living more bearable and that is music but not just any form of music: METAL MUSIC \m/ Through every long day or night no matter how low i've felt or how much i've wanted to end my life i've found solace, a sense of belonging and the knowledge that i'm not alone in feeling like this and it gives me the strength to wake up and face a new day knowing anything can happen coz in life there is no destination, there is only the journey.







Omar Khadr, a sixteen year old Guantanamo Bay detainee weeps uncontrollably, clutching at his face and hair as he calls out for his mother to save him from his torment. “Ya Ummi, Ya Ummi (Oh Mother, Oh Mother),” he wails repeatedly, hauntingly with each breath he takes.

The surveillance tapes, released by Khadr’s defence, show him left alone in an interrogation room for a “break” after he tried complaining to CSIS (Canadian Security Intelligence Service) officers about his poor health due to insufficient medical attention. Ignoring his complaints and trying to get him to make false confessions, the officers get frustrated with the sixteen year old’s tears and tell him to get himself together by the time they come back from their break.

“You don’t care about me. Nobody cares about me,” he sobs to them.

The tapes show how the officers manipulated Khadr into thinking that they were helping him because they were also Canadian and how they taunted him with the prospect of home (Canada), (good) food, and familial reunion.

Khadr, a Canadian, was taken into US custody at the age of fifteen, tortured and refused medical attention because he wouldn’t attest to being a member of Al Qaeda, even though he was shot three times in the chest and had shrapnel embedded in his eyes and right shoulder. As a result, Khadr’s left eye is now permanently blind, the vision in his right eye is deteriorating, he develops severe pain in his right shoulder when the temperature drops, and he suffers from extreme nightmares.

He has been incarcerated at Guantanamo Bay since 2002, suffering extremely harsh interrogations and torture (methods), and is now 25 years old.

27 now, and still imprisoned

i’m in complete shock. i’m so nauseous right now. how is this possible? i don’t know what to do w/ this information. i share it because i can’t imagine that anyone else knows about this. the boy has been incarcerated, tortured, and basically maimed allll w/out a trial. my heart hurts :/


Omar is no longer in Guantanamo. Left without options, he pled guilty to war crimes so that he’d be given an eight year sentence and be able to transfer to a prison in Canada. He remains in prison there. His story is absolutely heartbreaking. This was a 15 year old boy who has been described as crying out for his mother, who slept holding a Mickey Mouse book one of his captors gave him. A teenager taken from his family, tortured, humiliated, threatened with rape, and falsely imprisoned for 12 years now. You can help Omar by writing to him, donating for his defense, and signing petitions for him. Please visit to learn more.

Jesus fuck, America.




people say ‘I love you’ in a lot of different ways

'eat something'

'buckle up'

'get some sleep'

'here have my fries'

'Im gonna draw you something'


do you ever pretend like you didn’t see something so the other person doesn’t feel embarrassed 


Abandoned Nuclear Weapon Storage Facility - Northern Russia

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I hated high school. I don’t trust anybody who looks back on the years from 14 to 18 with any enjoyment. If you liked being a teenager, there’s something wrong with you.


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